hmm a blink of an eye. someone of the same age died. is 17 really young? life is like a click and its gone. with God hmm for now only. without? i dont know. maybe its forever. a friend who shared hte same school time and memories just gone. gone, easy to type, difficult to accept.
my life, hmm i didnt regret. i just feel that i gotta love more. my friends and people around me. haha.
life has been okok. God is loving more and more. felt it.hehe. hmm today soccere at the cage. with radical, ruel and remix guys. awesome eh. maybe except josh was injured. Abba, in jesus name his toe line fracture will be alright. so will mine. hmm my thumb has been injured for 3 weeks. and i have been playing alot. and today got shot again. its numb and pain. not a good sign for sure.
anyways. been thinking. since i went mk to help. hmm i like kids haha. fun. its awesome to educate and spend time bringing up the young ones. awesome.
love is patient. hmm i should wait. but is the person the one? all i know is i feel comfortable ard . hmm GOd to tell me. so far its a no go. wisedom. lets ask GOd. hmm ok im not gonna say anymore much.
cya
hi, Os is ending. vb today was pretty bad. melvin goh was there though haha..
i feel so sad . i mean life suddenly seemed so meaningless. God's ways are higher but i still cant help being not sad and like down. dont ask me. i really dont know why. nothing seemed to be worthy to me now. just so numb.
cant help but shout foolish foolish foolish. i dont know why. just feel stupid.
Good people are hard to come by? well i dont know. but i know people u like and love is hard to come by. GOd knows. i dont. hmm. i dont know wat else to say .
right thing at a wrong time made it all wrong. i guess this encouraged me or made me feel worse? haha.... i always wait too much but i do appreciate it. God give me right time and let me do it right.
i cant deny that i am pretty down to those emotional period again. God i know i have u. i have no one to turn to. only u. u know wat is ahead for me and u have prepared that. yes i know u do.
hmm i have nothing much to say here hmm. even if i have not here i guess? haha
"Everybody needs a little time away," I heard her say, "from each other." "Even lover's need a holiday far away from each other." Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry. I just want you to stay.
After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to. And after all that's been said and done, You're just the part of me I can't let go.
Couldn't stand to be kept away just for the day from your body. Wouldn't wanna be swept away, far away from the one that I love. Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry. I just want you to know. Hold me now. I really want to tell you I'm sorry. I could never let you go.
After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to. And after all that's been said and done, You're just the part of me I can't let go.
After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to.
You're gonna be the lucky one.
Stay with me Don't fall asleep too soon The angels can wait for a moment
Come real close Forget the world outside Tonight we're alone It's finally you and I
It wasn't meant to feel like this Not without you
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
Don't be afraid I'll be right by your side Through the laughter and pain Together we're bound to fly
I wasn't meant to love like this Not without you
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
I made a few mistakes, yeah
Like sometimes we do
Been through lot of heartache But I made it back to you
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you And when I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
When I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
lyrics says it all. as in mood haha.
Eyes Like a sunrise Like a rainfall Down my soul And I wonder I wonder why you look at me like that What you're thinking What's behind Don't tell me But it feels like love
I'm gonna take this moment And make it last forever I'm gonna give my heart away And pray we'll stay together Cause you're the one good reason You're the only girl that I need Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen I'm gonna take this night And make it Evergreen
Touch Like a angel Like velvet to my skin And I wonder Wonder why you wanna stay the night What you're dreaming What's behind Don't tell me But it feels like love
I'm gonna take this moment And make it last forever I'm gonna give my heart away And pray we'll stay together Cause you're the one good reason You're the only girl that I need Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen I'm gonna take this night And make it Evergreen
(Don't tell me But it feels like love)
I'm gonna take this moment And make it last forever I'm gonna give my heart away And pray we'll stay together Cause you're the one good reason You're the only girl that I need Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen I'm gonna take this night And make it Evergreen
whooooo one more week and i am free! GOd u have setted me free , i will shout and sing ur praises lord. i give u praise for ur unending love always!!!!. roar u have love me so sososososo much . And i thank u for all my friends. XD all the best tmr to G for VAs ROAR WACK st hildas ah. too bad i can watch.
God i also pray that my injuries will be healed. my left thumb and my right knee. Father also protect me against sickness . i will not be defeated whoooooohoooo lolz.
peace out.
wang le you duo jiu zai mei ting dao ni dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi wo xiang le hen jiu wo kai shi huang le shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me
# ni ku zhao dui wo shuo tong hua li du shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
* wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
Repeat # and *
wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
yi qi xie wo men de jie ju
today's service was awesome. gave up my seat for sweemin though haha.
sermon was awesome, i have been pretty down i think. i feel that i am not myself for quite awhile. this year is a year where there are alot of emotional issues huh. maybe lo..many of my friends faced many things and i am unable to help in any way. as for me, thats the main point of this year. becaue i need a breakthru. things came on the wrong side when i am unable to help even myself. but i know my God is always there for me. It was me who turned away. NOw i am back .
the difference abt it is, i do not feel alone when i face my problems now. however the pain is still there. maybe deep inside me i have things that bothers me but i dont know.
hmm i really dont know man. i dont think this is a good place to talk abt it.
right thing at wrong time is still wrong. going into things that somehow made me down. depress and beaten. jealousy. i remember wat pastor prince said, it is pretty true . we do not get jealous of people who are really of a very different age , for example a young girl is not jealous of the old lady, and say that the old lady's bun is nice lol. yeah but thats something abt it. i have one area where i get jealous unknowingly untill i sit down and think.
so i guess thats the furthest i can say. well i dont think i wish to say it here. it is always better to be talking to a person face to face. which i have never done so much until things end. loser man . tsk . hmm. i am always worried that i bore people. and yes i do. i simply love to talk. i have many things to pour eh. but nothing comes out face to face. im weak.
all i can say to end is i want to pray. i will come to u just as i am. God i know u will restore and u will provide for me, the things i lost will be gien back to me 7 folds. i wont get 7x i get 7x the quality. my heart will not grow faint and it shall always be urs. my tongue will proclaim that ur name is the name of all and i will always praise ur name and urs only. amen.
i am afriad to love. the one i dare to love is God. i am afraid to get into a relationship. because i dont know how to love
its been 3 mths haha since i last posted. i am in midst of my Os. u know. no matter how much the work is or how prepared am i. exams are always the killer esp academic wise for me.
though i know God is the one making the final call, i will still ask, wat is my career gonna be?.
firstly, i have this fear of failing again despite my hard work. hmm i have always have the interest of joining the army. But many came out jobless and sort.
but no matter how many jobs etc in my mind. one thing i cannot deny is, i want to make money and have a family of my own. i can be a man. not tht i cant. But it is wat i see, that man means man of the family. yeah
secondly, why i have the though of going in is. i have no idea wat job i should get outside. and i am not studies incline. frankly i dont kinda like it. not that i condemn it. but i really cant take secondary school studies much longer. heres the bad news, by not going thru the main way, as in gov poly. i can say goodbye to high pay. and officer cadet school in army.
i dont doubt my ability and definitely not God too. so i just want to pray that i can really find the answer.
i have been listening and thinking over pastor brian's sermon on our dreams and wat is actually given to us in our hands. wats in my heart is a job that i love and like. money itself wont motivate me , other than family it is my interest. so tsk tsk. wat is it.
Gigi told me and reminded me to live in the now. yesh thats right. cant help thinking abt future though haha. i can pray but i will still think. lol
hmm. main thing now is God make me pass.
actually some may know. i used to aim to become a pe teacher. hmm it like died down for awhile , how? well army career still sounds good , maybe not so after i really try?
roar.!!! hmm i gotta study. cya
its been almost a month, i came back from lj. hope to have another chance to have a quieter time here in my blog. sudden stress settle in again. the moodiness on and off. however seeing u is kinda conforting , because this time u can smile haha.
hmm prelims are near. i want to ace it. no more excuses no more compromise. because this is no longer an expectation setted my people around me, it is my dream
DREAMS are given by God, expectations of our physical results are worldly. GOd i want to shoot off to another part of my life. let this time be super. i just want quietness now and rest.
i wanna kayat now. out of this place. in the sea. going against the current. smashing through the rough sea. i want to see the sun and fight to see it. sitting down and wait for the sun will not be as meaningful as fighting to see the sun. HOwever the oter way round. GOd wants us to rest and see the results. God can call us to do different things too. if it is a dream then commit it to the lord.
sometimes i wonder wat are the tinking of many speakers / teachers thinking, when they share devotion. i mean yes , Jesus is glorified. But i see them talking abt our human works above His death. i know we have to follow on God's work. meaning to act it out for we have receive. but many just follow it blindly. thus, a law. law is the ministry of death. GRACE!!! where are u, grace grace. why are u always left out. why do people always think of God's wrath? yes i know there is wrath. but I SEE GRACE. He was crucified for me.
i hear people say that we are sinners and we are going to hell thats why we have to believe in GOd. sometimes because GOd love us thats why he wants to save us.. then so and so. this folowed by. if we do not reconcil we will go to hell.
Now when i am christian. yes, i know those unsaved will go to hell. But hey we can understand and not FEAR because we are saved. How will non-believers see it as.??? a FEAR. i dont know am i prejudiced against them..
BUT I AM HERE TO SAY. JESUS IS MY BEST FRIEND, HE IS MY BEST BROTHER, MY BEST MENTOR, MY LOVER. HE DIED FOR US SO THAT THE LAW=WRATH=PUNISHMENT WILL NOT BE OURS. HE BORE IT ON THE CROSS. HE SACRIFICED FOR ME, FOR US. NO THERE IS THEREFORE NO MORE CONDEMNATION. LOOK IF U THINK THERE IS CONDEMNATION, I WILL SAY YES OF COURSE. BUT JESUS TOOK IT SO THAT WE WILL NOT.
HE PAID OUR DEBT, SO WAT ARE WE TRYING TO PAY? NOTHING. GOD FREELY GAVE US HIS SON, WAT CAN HE NOT GIVE US. YES GOD IS A GIVER AND TAKER. BUT HE DOES NOT GIVE SICKNESS. YES I JUST SAID HE WILL NOT WHY? PUNISHMENT? IF IT IS PUNISHMENT THEN OK ASK JESUS TO COME DOWN FROM THE CROSS, THEN U GO UP. WE JUST NEED TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS AND BE FORGIVEN. AND WHEN WE ARE FORGIVEN , IT IS DONE. BUT FEAR NOT, GOD WILL NOT CONDEMN WELL U MAY ASK THEN WAT IF WE ARE NOT FORGIVEN? I ADMIT ID IS PAINFUL. BUT BY NOT FORGIVING ARE WE NOT CONDEMNING OTHERS? WE ARE NOT PERFECT. WE NEED GOD. WITHOUT GOD WE CANNOT, SIMPLE, AND WITHOUT US, GOD WILLNOT.
QUESTION TODAY. DO U LOVE GOD OR FEAR GOD? BOTH? THEN WAT IS THE FEAR. ETERNAL DEATH? OR LOVE HIM BECAUSE U ARE SAVED. NOW BOTH CONTRADICTS RIGHT? IF U ARE SAVED HOW R U TO BE CONDEMNED?
LETS LINK IT TO THE SICKNESS PART. A MAN WAS SICK. A PASTOR ASKED HIM WHY IS IT SO, THE MAN SAID GOD WANTS TO TEACH ME A LESSON. HMM ALRIGHT FAIR...ENOUGH. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN? 20 YRS. OH U MUST BE A SLOW LEARNER. HEY LOOOOOKKK!!!!. CAN I SAY HE IS PUNISHED FOR BELIEVING GOD? NONONONONO!!!!! DISEASES NEVER CAME FROM GOD. OLD TESTIMENT DID. YES, THAT WAS BEFORE JESUS BORE THE CROSS FOR US. IF IT IS NOT FROM GOD THEN IT IS FROM DEVIL ISNT IT? IT IS NOT FROM THE BIRDS OR PIGS. DONT PRAY TO THEM, NEITHER DO U ASK FROM THE devil. WHY? EASY. IF devil CAN SAVE U GOD NEED NOT GIVE HIS SON TO DIE.
IT IS REPEATING MAN, ALL THE FOCUS THIS WHILE IS THE LAMB ON THE CROSS. THE CROSS.
SO HOW DO WE GET WELL, BELIEVE GOD. BELIEVE GOD DOESNT MEAN BELIEVING BLINDLY. THIS CAN BE A PROBLEM. PEOPLE WHO CAN MEMORISE THE BIBLE CAN BE BLIND. BECAUSE THEY CANT SEE THE GRACE. LET SEE WHO IN TEH BIBLE CAN ABIDE ALL THE LAWS? NO ONE. ONLY ONE THE PERFECT OFFERING JESUS. IF WE CANT BE PERFECT DOES IT MEAN WE DIE? YEAH. WE DO DIE. PHYSICALLY BUT NOT SPIRITUALLY. WE ARE SAVED. SO HOW CAN U SAY THAT ABIDING THE LAW KEEPS U ALIVE IF NONE OF US CAN. ????
JESUS TOOK THE CROSS FOR US....
THIS IS LINKED TO THE FIRST PART ,THIS CYCLE KEEPS GOING ON BECAUSE WE HAVE THE ANSWER.
JESUS DIED ON THE CORSS FOR US. SO WE CAN LIVE, NOT WITHOUT LAW, BUT WITHOUT THE WRATH OF THE LAW. GOD IS THE TAKER. HE TOOK THE WRATH AND GAVE IT TO ANOTHER PERSON.JESUS
ISNT THIS LOVE? AMAZING LOVE. SO IF U THINK UR GOING TO HELL , GOD IS SAD. LETS NOT QUALIFY OURSELVES THIS ALSO DOESNT MEAN TO DISQUALIFY AND CONDEMN OURSLEVES.WE NEED TO KNOW THAT WE ARE SAVED BY GOD, BY HIS GRACE. SALVATION=JESUS. HE IS OUR SLAVATION. BELIVING IN HIM MEANS SAVED.
LET NOT FEAR GOD THIS WAY. HE IS A CARING GOD. HE IS HARD TOWARDS evil , BUT SMILES AT HIS CHILDREN
today is one of my free-er day haha. so decided to spend time with volleyball and God. I have learnt something today. and that is to realy study the bible and know about my ABBA . i also learn that wat joshua said was true that, for him spending time in his studies is also spending his time with God hmm as in GOd is with him. God i will say amen abt that for me too. spending time in my studies is how i want to use to glorify u.
the vb game so not so good as i didnt play that well but who cares. i still enjoyed and i did my part. Zhang jialian came too. he ask me to train setting and play for NYP. as in try to train as a setter before i get in. ANd this is another AMen daddy. i will get in NYP and their team too.
for now dady i pray for those that i want and need to pray for. hmm it may be sensitive so i wont pray here. but GOd may ur Love and peace be with them always.
mum and dad going to macau soon. saded liao. but i also happy. can go out muahahahaha. kk i go rest liao se ya soon daryl out
hmm a blink of an eye. someone of the same age died. is 17 really young? life is like a click and its gone. with God hmm for now only. without? i dont know. maybe its forever. a friend who shared hte same school time and memories just gone. gone, easy to type, difficult to accept.
my life, hmm i didnt regret. i just feel that i gotta love more. my friends and people around me. haha.
life has been okok. God is loving more and more. felt it.hehe. hmm today soccere at the cage. with radical, ruel and remix guys. awesome eh. maybe except josh was injured. Abba, in jesus name his toe line fracture will be alright. so will mine. hmm my thumb has been injured for 3 weeks. and i have been playing alot. and today got shot again. its numb and pain. not a good sign for sure.
anyways. been thinking. since i went mk to help. hmm i like kids haha. fun. its awesome to educate and spend time bringing up the young ones. awesome.
love is patient. hmm i should wait. but is the person the one? all i know is i feel comfortable ard . hmm GOd to tell me. so far its a no go. wisedom. lets ask GOd. hmm ok im not gonna say anymore much.
cya
hi, Os is ending. vb today was pretty bad. melvin goh was there though haha..
i feel so sad . i mean life suddenly seemed so meaningless. God's ways are higher but i still cant help being not sad and like down. dont ask me. i really dont know why. nothing seemed to be worthy to me now. just so numb.
cant help but shout foolish foolish foolish. i dont know why. just feel stupid.
Good people are hard to come by? well i dont know. but i know people u like and love is hard to come by. GOd knows. i dont. hmm. i dont know wat else to say .
right thing at a wrong time made it all wrong. i guess this encouraged me or made me feel worse? haha.... i always wait too much but i do appreciate it. God give me right time and let me do it right.
i cant deny that i am pretty down to those emotional period again. God i know i have u. i have no one to turn to. only u. u know wat is ahead for me and u have prepared that. yes i know u do.
hmm i have nothing much to say here hmm. even if i have not here i guess? haha
"Everybody needs a little time away," I heard her say, "from each other." "Even lover's need a holiday far away from each other." Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry. I just want you to stay.
After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to. And after all that's been said and done, You're just the part of me I can't let go.
Couldn't stand to be kept away just for the day from your body. Wouldn't wanna be swept away, far away from the one that I love. Hold me now. It's hard for me to say I'm sorry. I just want you to know. Hold me now. I really want to tell you I'm sorry. I could never let you go.
After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to. And after all that's been said and done, You're just the part of me I can't let go.
After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you. I promise to.
You're gonna be the lucky one.
Stay with me Don't fall asleep too soon The angels can wait for a moment
Come real close Forget the world outside Tonight we're alone It's finally you and I
It wasn't meant to feel like this Not without you
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
Don't be afraid I'll be right by your side Through the laughter and pain Together we're bound to fly
I wasn't meant to love like this Not without you
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
I made a few mistakes, yeah
Like sometimes we do
Been through lot of heartache But I made it back to you
Cos when I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you And when I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
When I look at my life How the pieces fall into place It just wouldn't rhyme without you When I see how my path Seem to end up before your face The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
The state of my heart The place where we are Was written in the stars
lyrics says it all. as in mood haha.
Eyes Like a sunrise Like a rainfall Down my soul And I wonder I wonder why you look at me like that What you're thinking What's behind Don't tell me But it feels like love
I'm gonna take this moment And make it last forever I'm gonna give my heart away And pray we'll stay together Cause you're the one good reason You're the only girl that I need Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen I'm gonna take this night And make it Evergreen
Touch Like a angel Like velvet to my skin And I wonder Wonder why you wanna stay the night What you're dreaming What's behind Don't tell me But it feels like love
I'm gonna take this moment And make it last forever I'm gonna give my heart away And pray we'll stay together Cause you're the one good reason You're the only girl that I need Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen I'm gonna take this night And make it Evergreen
(Don't tell me But it feels like love)
I'm gonna take this moment And make it last forever I'm gonna give my heart away And pray we'll stay together Cause you're the one good reason You're the only girl that I need Cause you're more beautiful than I have ever seen I'm gonna take this night And make it Evergreen
whooooo one more week and i am free! GOd u have setted me free , i will shout and sing ur praises lord. i give u praise for ur unending love always!!!!. roar u have love me so sososososo much . And i thank u for all my friends. XD all the best tmr to G for VAs ROAR WACK st hildas ah. too bad i can watch.
God i also pray that my injuries will be healed. my left thumb and my right knee. Father also protect me against sickness . i will not be defeated whoooooohoooo lolz.
peace out.
wang le you duo jiu zai mei ting dao ni dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi wo xiang le hen jiu wo kai shi huang le shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me
# ni ku zhao dui wo shuo tong hua li du shi pian ren de wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi ye xu ni bu hui dong cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
* wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
Repeat # and *
wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
wo hui bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de na ge tian shi zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni ni yao xiang xin xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
yi qi xie wo men de jie ju
today's service was awesome. gave up my seat for sweemin though haha.
sermon was awesome, i have been pretty down i think. i feel that i am not myself for quite awhile. this year is a year where there are alot of emotional issues huh. maybe lo..many of my friends faced many things and i am unable to help in any way. as for me, thats the main point of this year. becaue i need a breakthru. things came on the wrong side when i am unable to help even myself. but i know my God is always there for me. It was me who turned away. NOw i am back .
the difference abt it is, i do not feel alone when i face my problems now. however the pain is still there. maybe deep inside me i have things that bothers me but i dont know.
hmm i really dont know man. i dont think this is a good place to talk abt it.
right thing at wrong time is still wrong. going into things that somehow made me down. depress and beaten. jealousy. i remember wat pastor prince said, it is pretty true . we do not get jealous of people who are really of a very different age , for example a young girl is not jealous of the old lady, and say that the old lady's bun is nice lol. yeah but thats something abt it. i have one area where i get jealous unknowingly untill i sit down and think.
so i guess thats the furthest i can say. well i dont think i wish to say it here. it is always better to be talking to a person face to face. which i have never done so much until things end. loser man . tsk . hmm. i am always worried that i bore people. and yes i do. i simply love to talk. i have many things to pour eh. but nothing comes out face to face. im weak.
all i can say to end is i want to pray. i will come to u just as i am. God i know u will restore and u will provide for me, the things i lost will be gien back to me 7 folds. i wont get 7x i get 7x the quality. my heart will not grow faint and it shall always be urs. my tongue will proclaim that ur name is the name of all and i will always praise ur name and urs only. amen.
i am afriad to love. the one i dare to love is God. i am afraid to get into a relationship. because i dont know how to love
its been 3 mths haha since i last posted. i am in midst of my Os. u know. no matter how much the work is or how prepared am i. exams are always the killer esp academic wise for me.
though i know God is the one making the final call, i will still ask, wat is my career gonna be?.
firstly, i have this fear of failing again despite my hard work. hmm i have always have the interest of joining the army. But many came out jobless and sort.
but no matter how many jobs etc in my mind. one thing i cannot deny is, i want to make money and have a family of my own. i can be a man. not tht i cant. But it is wat i see, that man means man of the family. yeah
secondly, why i have the though of going in is. i have no idea wat job i should get outside. and i am not studies incline. frankly i dont kinda like it. not that i condemn it. but i really cant take secondary school studies much longer. heres the bad news, by not going thru the main way, as in gov poly. i can say goodbye to high pay. and officer cadet school in army.
i dont doubt my ability and definitely not God too. so i just want to pray that i can really find the answer.
i have been listening and thinking over pastor brian's sermon on our dreams and wat is actually given to us in our hands. wats in my heart is a job that i love and like. money itself wont motivate me , other than family it is my interest. so tsk tsk. wat is it.
Gigi told me and reminded me to live in the now. yesh thats right. cant help thinking abt future though haha. i can pray but i will still think. lol
hmm. main thing now is God make me pass.
actually some may know. i used to aim to become a pe teacher. hmm it like died down for awhile , how? well army career still sounds good , maybe not so after i really try?
roar.!!! hmm i gotta study. cya
its been almost a month, i came back from lj. hope to have another chance to have a quieter time here in my blog. sudden stress settle in again. the moodiness on and off. however seeing u is kinda conforting , because this time u can smile haha.
hmm prelims are near. i want to ace it. no more excuses no more compromise. because this is no longer an expectation setted my people around me, it is my dream
DREAMS are given by God, expectations of our physical results are worldly. GOd i want to shoot off to another part of my life. let this time be super. i just want quietness now and rest.
i wanna kayat now. out of this place. in the sea. going against the current. smashing through the rough sea. i want to see the sun and fight to see it. sitting down and wait for the sun will not be as meaningful as fighting to see the sun. HOwever the oter way round. GOd wants us to rest and see the results. God can call us to do different things too. if it is a dream then commit it to the lord.
sometimes i wonder wat are the tinking of many speakers / teachers thinking, when they share devotion. i mean yes , Jesus is glorified. But i see them talking abt our human works above His death. i know we have to follow on God's work. meaning to act it out for we have receive. but many just follow it blindly. thus, a law. law is the ministry of death. GRACE!!! where are u, grace grace. why are u always left out. why do people always think of God's wrath? yes i know there is wrath. but I SEE GRACE. He was crucified for me.
i hear people say that we are sinners and we are going to hell thats why we have to believe in GOd. sometimes because GOd love us thats why he wants to save us.. then so and so. this folowed by. if we do not reconcil we will go to hell.
Now when i am christian. yes, i know those unsaved will go to hell. But hey we can understand and not FEAR because we are saved. How will non-believers see it as.??? a FEAR. i dont know am i prejudiced against them..
BUT I AM HERE TO SAY. JESUS IS MY BEST FRIEND, HE IS MY BEST BROTHER, MY BEST MENTOR, MY LOVER. HE DIED FOR US SO THAT THE LAW=WRATH=PUNISHMENT WILL NOT BE OURS. HE BORE IT ON THE CROSS. HE SACRIFICED FOR ME, FOR US. NO THERE IS THEREFORE NO MORE CONDEMNATION. LOOK IF U THINK THERE IS CONDEMNATION, I WILL SAY YES OF COURSE. BUT JESUS TOOK IT SO THAT WE WILL NOT.
HE PAID OUR DEBT, SO WAT ARE WE TRYING TO PAY? NOTHING. GOD FREELY GAVE US HIS SON, WAT CAN HE NOT GIVE US. YES GOD IS A GIVER AND TAKER. BUT HE DOES NOT GIVE SICKNESS. YES I JUST SAID HE WILL NOT WHY? PUNISHMENT? IF IT IS PUNISHMENT THEN OK ASK JESUS TO COME DOWN FROM THE CROSS, THEN U GO UP. WE JUST NEED TO ASK FOR FORGIVENESS AND BE FORGIVEN. AND WHEN WE ARE FORGIVEN , IT IS DONE. BUT FEAR NOT, GOD WILL NOT CONDEMN WELL U MAY ASK THEN WAT IF WE ARE NOT FORGIVEN? I ADMIT ID IS PAINFUL. BUT BY NOT FORGIVING ARE WE NOT CONDEMNING OTHERS? WE ARE NOT PERFECT. WE NEED GOD. WITHOUT GOD WE CANNOT, SIMPLE, AND WITHOUT US, GOD WILLNOT.
QUESTION TODAY. DO U LOVE GOD OR FEAR GOD? BOTH? THEN WAT IS THE FEAR. ETERNAL DEATH? OR LOVE HIM BECAUSE U ARE SAVED. NOW BOTH CONTRADICTS RIGHT? IF U ARE SAVED HOW R U TO BE CONDEMNED?
LETS LINK IT TO THE SICKNESS PART. A MAN WAS SICK. A PASTOR ASKED HIM WHY IS IT SO, THE MAN SAID GOD WANTS TO TEACH ME A LESSON. HMM ALRIGHT FAIR...ENOUGH. HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN? 20 YRS. OH U MUST BE A SLOW LEARNER. HEY LOOOOOKKK!!!!. CAN I SAY HE IS PUNISHED FOR BELIEVING GOD? NONONONONO!!!!! DISEASES NEVER CAME FROM GOD. OLD TESTIMENT DID. YES, THAT WAS BEFORE JESUS BORE THE CROSS FOR US. IF IT IS NOT FROM GOD THEN IT IS FROM DEVIL ISNT IT? IT IS NOT FROM THE BIRDS OR PIGS. DONT PRAY TO THEM, NEITHER DO U ASK FROM THE devil. WHY? EASY. IF devil CAN SAVE U GOD NEED NOT GIVE HIS SON TO DIE.
IT IS REPEATING MAN, ALL THE FOCUS THIS WHILE IS THE LAMB ON THE CROSS. THE CROSS.
SO HOW DO WE GET WELL, BELIEVE GOD. BELIEVE GOD DOESNT MEAN BELIEVING BLINDLY. THIS CAN BE A PROBLEM. PEOPLE WHO CAN MEMORISE THE BIBLE CAN BE BLIND. BECAUSE THEY CANT SEE THE GRACE. LET SEE WHO IN TEH BIBLE CAN ABIDE ALL THE LAWS? NO ONE. ONLY ONE THE PERFECT OFFERING JESUS. IF WE CANT BE PERFECT DOES IT MEAN WE DIE? YEAH. WE DO DIE. PHYSICALLY BUT NOT SPIRITUALLY. WE ARE SAVED. SO HOW CAN U SAY THAT ABIDING THE LAW KEEPS U ALIVE IF NONE OF US CAN. ????
JESUS TOOK THE CROSS FOR US....
THIS IS LINKED TO THE FIRST PART ,THIS CYCLE KEEPS GOING ON BECAUSE WE HAVE THE ANSWER.
JESUS DIED ON THE CORSS FOR US. SO WE CAN LIVE, NOT WITHOUT LAW, BUT WITHOUT THE WRATH OF THE LAW. GOD IS THE TAKER. HE TOOK THE WRATH AND GAVE IT TO ANOTHER PERSON.JESUS
ISNT THIS LOVE? AMAZING LOVE. SO IF U THINK UR GOING TO HELL , GOD IS SAD. LETS NOT QUALIFY OURSELVES THIS ALSO DOESNT MEAN TO DISQUALIFY AND CONDEMN OURSLEVES.WE NEED TO KNOW THAT WE ARE SAVED BY GOD, BY HIS GRACE. SALVATION=JESUS. HE IS OUR SLAVATION. BELIVING IN HIM MEANS SAVED.
LET NOT FEAR GOD THIS WAY. HE IS A CARING GOD. HE IS HARD TOWARDS evil , BUT SMILES AT HIS CHILDREN
today is one of my free-er day haha. so decided to spend time with volleyball and God. I have learnt something today. and that is to realy study the bible and know about my ABBA . i also learn that wat joshua said was true that, for him spending time in his studies is also spending his time with God hmm as in GOd is with him. God i will say amen abt that for me too. spending time in my studies is how i want to use to glorify u.
the vb game so not so good as i didnt play that well but who cares. i still enjoyed and i did my part. Zhang jialian came too. he ask me to train setting and play for NYP. as in try to train as a setter before i get in. ANd this is another AMen daddy. i will get in NYP and their team too.
for now dady i pray for those that i want and need to pray for. hmm it may be sensitive so i wont pray here. but GOd may ur Love and peace be with them always.
mum and dad going to macau soon. saded liao. but i also happy. can go out muahahahaha. kk i go rest liao se ya soon daryl out
