i am afriad to love. the one i dare to love is God. i am afraid to get into a relationship. because i dont know how to love
its been 3 mths haha since i last posted. i am in midst of my Os. u know. no matter how much the work is or how prepared am i. exams are always the killer esp academic wise for me.
though i know God is the one making the final call, i will still ask, wat is my career gonna be?.
firstly, i have this fear of failing again despite my hard work. hmm i have always have the interest of joining the army. But many came out jobless and sort.
but no matter how many jobs etc in my mind. one thing i cannot deny is, i want to make money and have a family of my own. i can be a man. not tht i cant. But it is wat i see, that man means man of the family. yeah
secondly, why i have the though of going in is. i have no idea wat job i should get outside. and i am not studies incline. frankly i dont kinda like it. not that i condemn it. but i really cant take secondary school studies much longer. heres the bad news, by not going thru the main way, as in gov poly. i can say goodbye to high pay. and officer cadet school in army.
i dont doubt my ability and definitely not God too. so i just want to pray that i can really find the answer.
i have been listening and thinking over pastor brian's sermon on our dreams and wat is actually given to us in our hands. wats in my heart is a job that i love and like. money itself wont motivate me , other than family it is my interest. so tsk tsk. wat is it.
Gigi told me and reminded me to live in the now. yesh thats right. cant help thinking abt future though haha. i can pray but i will still think. lol
hmm. main thing now is God make me pass.
actually some may know. i used to aim to become a pe teacher. hmm it like died down for awhile , how? well army career still sounds good , maybe not so after i really try?
roar.!!! hmm i gotta study. cya
i am afriad to love. the one i dare to love is God. i am afraid to get into a relationship. because i dont know how to love
its been 3 mths haha since i last posted. i am in midst of my Os. u know. no matter how much the work is or how prepared am i. exams are always the killer esp academic wise for me.
though i know God is the one making the final call, i will still ask, wat is my career gonna be?.
firstly, i have this fear of failing again despite my hard work. hmm i have always have the interest of joining the army. But many came out jobless and sort.
but no matter how many jobs etc in my mind. one thing i cannot deny is, i want to make money and have a family of my own. i can be a man. not tht i cant. But it is wat i see, that man means man of the family. yeah
secondly, why i have the though of going in is. i have no idea wat job i should get outside. and i am not studies incline. frankly i dont kinda like it. not that i condemn it. but i really cant take secondary school studies much longer. heres the bad news, by not going thru the main way, as in gov poly. i can say goodbye to high pay. and officer cadet school in army.
i dont doubt my ability and definitely not God too. so i just want to pray that i can really find the answer.
i have been listening and thinking over pastor brian's sermon on our dreams and wat is actually given to us in our hands. wats in my heart is a job that i love and like. money itself wont motivate me , other than family it is my interest. so tsk tsk. wat is it.
Gigi told me and reminded me to live in the now. yesh thats right. cant help thinking abt future though haha. i can pray but i will still think. lol
hmm. main thing now is God make me pass.
actually some may know. i used to aim to become a pe teacher. hmm it like died down for awhile , how? well army career still sounds good , maybe not so after i really try?
